Well....

Hello once again blog. Its been a while. But now that I have no more job, I guess it's time to resume our relationship. So I didn't get the job. The one thing that was going to put me back on track is lost. Its gone. I am so torn up about this right now. I haven't told anyone yet. Just you. I have been calling my agency for the past two days and now I call for the 100th time (exaggeration by the wayyy, im not crazy) and he answers. He tells me that I'm not hired. Ugh, what am I going to do?! Really, I was betting everything on this job, absolutely everything! I wanted it so bad...more than anything. And now it's out of my hands. This is a terrible time in my life to say the least. I feel like such a loser! So now that you have read all of this welcome to my pity party! It can only last today though. Tomorrow I really need to start getting my life together! Honestly, I just want to run away. I want to leave...but oh yeah...no money to do that either. I cant remember the last time I felt like this. I'm so lost and what do I really have? Honestly, I'm kinda glad I stopped writing in this for a while, bc now I see no one reads it, so I can get back to writing what I want.  What am I going to do? I guess I'll write more once I figure it out.

xoxo